A week today, I was feeling
somewhat apprehensive totally petrified, as it was the day before my surgery. This operation has been a long time coming, which has resulted in me having far too much time to think about it.
It was a little like running from a mouse; the mouse gets bigger and bigger, until it takes on a monstrous form and you run faster and faster. In the end, you just have to stop running, take a deep breath and turn and face the monster, only to discover it’s only a mouse.
I spent two nights and three days in hospital, the saving grace was having a room with a window, AND patio doors, which connected me to nature. I could see the sky, hear bird song and even had my very own tree. The nurses were not happy about the leaves blowing in but loved the breeze. I spent little time in bed, instead I soaked up the air like a sponge from a chair next to these doors, and tried to forget where I was.
Coming home was good, but of course home suddenly became a new landscape, given my sudden limitations, which was somewhat daunting initially. The endless list of do’s and don’ts can be overpowering.
Thankfully, dogs never figure on medics lists, and given how intuitive they are, they have just gently adapted to this new, strange me, this me, who clanks everywhere on crutches, who yelps if the sore side is touched, who sits on a chair with a huge cushion by herself. Dogs are good souls, and are very forgiving, truth is, they are more adaptable than us,
So the days have passed, for better and for worse. Today I’m amazed at what I can do. I can make tea, lunch, and get around fairly easily. A bag on my shoulder means I can be more or less independent. Gadgets grab the things I drop and hubs does all the things I can’t.
The best part of being more mobile was getting out into the new back garden. It’s so easy to walk around there on crutches.
But even better, I can now sit in my little courtyard again. There was sunshine in between the rain these last few mornings. What a haven it is.
Here’s to blue skies, and blue sky thinking.